Wisdom Never Walks Alone
I thought it would be a simple Nana/grandson fishing adventure. (That sentence, in itself, was amazing to write because I do not like fishing, so any fishing trip for me is not simple.) However, since Caleb was staying with us overnight while his parents were out of town and his sisters were elsewhere, I thought it would be fun to go to the nearby reservoir with him so he could fish. A wooded, scenic path leads to this reservoir—a sparkling lake where fish are known to live. We walked the path to a place that looked “fishy” to us, but they weren’t biting. He offered to let me throw some casts. I did, and promptly lost his lure when it hooked something big in the water which was not a fish. Line snapped. Fishing trip over.
It was a fun time with Caleb, though I was not prepared for a flood of emotions that filled me as we first entered the entrance to the path leading to the reservoir. As I first set foot on the path my eyes instinctively filled with tears. The emotions surprised me until it hit me that the last time I walked this path was when I was walking hand in hand with Wyndham. This was an oft-walked path for us; one where we would walk and pray. We would climb out on the rocks, often bringing our dogs, first Jordan and then Denver, after Jordan was gone. We would offer them endless fun retrieving tennis balls we would throw into the water. Many prayers were said, and memories made. Thus, the welling of emotions makes sense. Caleb was kind and understanding as I explained my sadness.
Since that day last week, I have spent some time meditating on the presence of God in my life. I am, in fact, never walking alone. God is so completely relational that somehow, he is one God who is also one with Jesus and the Spirit. I have spent hours contemplating the Trinity and have come away with two concrete thoughts: The nature of God is a dimension beyond human understanding, so I might as well just accept that I will never “figure it out,” but the Trinity shows us perfect relational love and unity. Since God is relational, and I am created in his image–I am relational, and his Spirit really does live in me, as it does every Christian. I am never alone. For real. God’s Spirit was always walking with us when we did walk together, and the Spirit never left. God’s Spirit is still with Wyndham and is still with me. Though I can’t walk and talk hand-in-hand with Wyndham anymore I will never walk alone, and neither will he.
Today, I felt the need to retrace my steps to walk and pray, and I felt a certain sense of peace that passes human understanding. Though I’d give anything to walk the path with him again, the solo adventures I am now more accustomed to consistently reassure me that the presence of God’s Spirit continually envelops me, walking with me because of its residence in my soul. Because of this, love always accompanies me. This is an amazing reality. I can sing this song by Austris A. Whithol:
My God and I go in the field together; We walk and talk as good friends should and do;
We clasp our hands, our voices ring with laughter; My God and I walk through the meadow’s hue…
My God and I will go for aye together; We’ll walk and talk just as good friends should and do; This earth will pass, and with it common trifles, But God and I will go unendingly.
Wisdom never walks alone. Wisdom was “walking with God” at the creation of the world. Wisdom can be an intimate friend.
The LORD by wisdom founded the earth; by understanding he established the heavens; (Prov 3:19 ESV)
Say to wisdom, “You are my sister,” and call insight your intimate friend,… (Prov 7:4 ESV)
Thank you. Your determination to find and feel God’s love and presence in every moment inspires me!
Your post made me remember our fishing trips in the pond in back of your house. We thought we were something else to put a worm on the hook! I guess fishing has been in your blood whether you liked it or not.
Your posts always have a special meaning to me. We are studying the Holy Spirit in church and His powerful work living in us. Thanks for your words.
So beautiful. I love the way your explain God’s presence in both your sadness and in your sense of adventure in what lies ahead. So appreciate your vulnerability. Your walk with Wyndham and even more so with God inspire me in so many ways. Hugs!
I love how you shared about your emotions on the walk with Caleb and then how you revisited the walk and shared the love and presence of God with as He is with you. I really felt this and was moved. I don’t know the song Jeannie but will find and listen. Thank you again for sharing your love for God with and Wyndham with us.
My word for you is Courage…the courage
you fight for each morning to “walk this walk”
and the courage to share it with us!
Thank you, Jeanie!
I love you Jeanie. I am reading about your “walk” as we drive home from a sweet visit with MorganEve in her home in Warren, RI. As a result I felt with you in my heart as you shared your tender feelings. Thank you for always drawing our hearts and eyes back to God.
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